Saturday, November 17, 2012

The Great and Wonderful E

I don't believe I've payed homage to my best friend E lately, and it's time for another post about his beautiful and shining star of a person. College is incredibly fun and you meet a ton of new people, but no one can compare to your childhood, or teenhood, friends. I haven't known E as long as some of my other best friends, but we are as close as if we have (I hope that makes some sort of sense). I visited my friend S last weekend and she articulated what I've been feeling perfectly. No matter how many friends you meet or how well you connect with people in college, no one knows you like your friends from home. No one can tell you what you're trying to say when it just won't come out right. And no one can tell you stories about your own childhood as well as if it had happened to them. This applies to all of my friends, but I've been missing E especially lately. I think we all have, because E is such an incredibly special person. She is an inspiration to lead a healthy and happy life and she is hands down the best listener to every grace the face of this earth. E is a person not everyone appreciates because of her quiet nature. She taught me so many things, but the most important thing she taught me was that quiet doesn't mean anti-social, and that you can find some of the world's greatest beauty in the mind of someone who isn't the center of attention. Her gems of wisdom and comforting reassurance are some of things I miss most about her. But mostly I just miss talking and hanging out with her, because even if we were just pigging out and making blanket forts, we would still have incredible conversations. I am so excited that I get to see her next week because I have missed her so so so so so much! I truly believe that I will never meet anyone else like her. If you are lucky enough to ever have E come dancing into your life, treasure her. Because she will teach you so much about the world and about yourself, and she will teach you to love yourself. I fancy myself a decent writer, but this girl blows everyone out of the water with her beautiful words. I strive to capture her essence of love and joy every day, and I am so lucky to be able to call her my best friend.

                                That's E on the left and me on the right at M's Christmas party last year <3



Wishing you many stunningly wonderful and inspiring best friends,
xxo taylor

Friday, September 21, 2012

Freaking. Out.

I AM GOING TO ACL!!!!!!!!!!

Yes.
Yes.
Austin City Limits.
Yes.
I am soooooooo excited!!!!!
So excited that I can't even make this an eloquent blog post.
I'm kind of worried about myself.
Because I've never actually been to a real concert. And I'm about to see almost every one of my favorite bands. I may go into shock.

I AM SO EXCITED!!!


Anndddd!! I haven't even told you the best part.

MY BOYFRIEND IS GOING TO!!
And a shit ton of my friends live in Austin.
And my friends A and M are going too!!
And I get to see my big sister!!!!
Like.
Holy shit.
I did not think things like this happened.
I am so freaking excited.
Now I am going to list the bands I'm going to see because I can think of nothing else fuck homework!


The Wombats
Tegan and Sara
Trampled by Turtles!!!!!
Alabama Shakes!
THE BLACK KEYS!!!!!!!! (this could only be made more perfect if they play songs from BlakRoc)
Bombay Bicycle Club
Metric
Big Gigantic
Band of Skulls
The Shins!!!!! :DDDDDD !!!!!!!!
Gotye
Kimbra
Stars
Two Door Cinema Club!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The Lumineers!!!
THE AVETT BROTHERS!!!!!!!!!!!!
Childish Gambino!! :DDD !!!!
And, of course, the one and only Red Hot Chili Peppers!



I have lost all ability to even. I can't even. Words are not real.

okay bye



xxo taylor

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Quote Collector

I enjoy quotes. As does the average person I think. But I have them strewn everywhere. on random pieces of paper, on notes in my my phone, saved as pictures on my computer. So I've decided to get myself a journal that I can write all my favorite quotes in. Until I can gather the time and money to go out and get myself one (because I want it to be nice) I'm going to be posting installments of quotes I love on here so that it's all nice and organized :] Enjoy!

Shine like fire,
That mirrors nothing
          -"Nuances of a Theme by Williams" by Wallace Stevens

Pour the unhappiness out
From your too bitter heart
Which grieving will not sweeten.
        -"Another Weeping Woman" by Wallace Stevens

Men are more interesting in books 
than they are in real life.
         -Isola Pribby from The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society by Mary Ann Shaper and Annie Barrows
(I don't agree with this any more, considering I've fallen in love. But it's still a good quote :] )

And after restoring someone's life I don't think
I have to be bloody religious to go where I need to go.
        -Dr. Jawad, a plastic surgeon who operates on women in the Middle East who's husbands pour acid on their faces

What do people not want to talk about?
Soccer. Jazz. Infidelity!!!
        -Jack Donagey 30 Rock (had to throw in a silly one :] )

There is only one way to achieve lasting happiness.
That way is simply: Be happy.
       -Zen & The Art of Happiness by Chris Prentiss

We must learn to live together, 
or we will perish as fools.
       -John Lewis

By the time you swear you're his,
     Shivering and sighing,
And he vows his passion is
      Infinite, undying-
Lady, make a note of this:
      One of you is lying.
            -"Unfortunate Coincidence" by Dorothy Parker

"next to of course god america i
love you land of the pilgrims' and so forth oh
say can you see by the dawn's early my
country 'tis of centuries come and go
and are no more what of it we should worry
in every language even deafanddumb 
thy sons acclaim your glorious name by gorry
by jingo by gee by gosh by gum
why talk of beauty what could be more beau-
tiful than these heroic happy dead
who rushed like lions to the roaring slaughter
they did not stop to think they died instead
then shall the voice of liberty be mute?"

He spoke. And drank rapidly a glass of water
               -"next to of course god america i" by E.E Cummings

She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies.
               -"She Walks in Beauty" by George Gordon (Lord Byron)

When I have fears that I may cease to be
Before my pen has gleaned my teeming brain.
                -"When I Have Fears" by John Keats

How do I love the? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
                -from Sonnets from the Portugues by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils.
            -"I Wandered Lonely as a Cloud" by William Wordsworth

No longer mourn for me when I am dead
Than you shall hear the surly sullen bell
Give warning to the world that I am fled
From this vile world, with vilest worms to dwell.
          -Sonnet 71 by William Shakespeare

But cursed are dullards whom no cannon stuns,
That they should be as  stones.
Wretched are they, and mean
With paucity that never was simplicity.
By choice they made themselves immune
To pity and whatever moans in man.
               -"Insensibility" by Wilfred Owen

I had a thought for no one's but your ears;
That you were beautiful, and that I strove
To love you in the high old way of love;
That it had all seemed happy, and yet we'd grown
As weary-hearted as the hollow moon."
                -"Adam's Curse" by William Butler Yeats

Bright as the sun, her eyes the gazers strike,
And, like the sun, they shine on all alike.
Yet graceful ease, and sweetness void of pride,
Might hide her faults, if belles had faults to hide:
If to her share some female errors fall,
Look on her face, and you'll forget 'em all.
              -"The Rape of the Lock" by Alexander Pope

Whenas in silks my Julia goes,
Then, then, methinks, how sweetly flows
That liquefaction of her clothes.
             -"Upon Julia's Clothes" by Robert Herrick

For me, the most ironic token of that moment in history
is the plaque signed by President Richard M. Nixon that Apollo 11
took to the Moon. It reads 'We came in peace for all mankind.'
As the United States was dropping 7.5 megatons of 
conventional explosives on small nations in Southeast Asia, we congratulated
ourselves on our humanity: We would harm no one on a lifeless rock."
              -Carl Sagan

Promote what you love instead of bashing what you hate.

You are like
a fresh cup
of warm coffee,
first thing 
in the morning.

I am tired;
weary with the burden
of long-closed eyes
and slumber, and
the prior day's exhaustion.

But if my day
begins with you
I know no task
can challenge me.
           - I have no idea who this is by

sometimes i am alive because with
me her alert treelike body sleeps
which i will feel slowly sharpening
becoming distinct with love slowly,
who in my shoulder sinks sweetly teeth
until we shall attain the Springsmelling
intense large togethercoloured instant

the moment pleasantly frightful

when, her mouth suddenly rising, wholly
begins with mine fiercely to fool
(and from my thighs which shrug and pant
a murdering rain leapingly reaches the
upward singular deepest flower which she
carries in a gesture of her hips)
             - or this one...

Someone asked me 
what home was
and all I could think of
were the 
stars
on the tip of your
tongue.
the
flowers
sprouting
from your mouth
the 
roots
entwined in 
the gaps
between your fingers
the ocean 
echoing 
inside of your 
ribcage.
        -this one just says EC so I kinda think it's E.E Cummings but I don't know

You are my sun,
my moon,
and all my stars.
       -E.E Cummings

What comes easy won't last
What lasts won't come easy.
         -Also no idea where this is from.



Hope you enjoyed some of them :]
Good night all!!

xxo taylor

Sunday, September 9, 2012

E's Beautiful Playlist

My dearest E, I am so sorry it has taken me so long to get this up. But here it is! As you've asked, here is a playlist of some beautiful music, either in message or melody. Enjoy! <3

Mightiest of Guns- A.A Bondy
For You- Angus and Julia Stone
And the Boys- Angus and Julia Stone
Murder in the City- The Avett Brothers
Just a Game- Birdy
Sea of Love- Cat Power
The Scientist- Coldplay
Like a Star- Corinne Bailey Rae
Clementine- The Decemberists
O Mistress Mine- from the "The Tempest" soundtrack
Sleeping- The Swell Season
End of the World- Ingrid Michaelson
You Are You Are- Lucy Schwartz
Rosie's Lullaby- Norah Jones (this has been my obsession for years and years and years)
The Mermaid Parade- Phosphorescent
Dream- Priscilla Ahn
Lullaby- Priscilla Ahn
Duet- Rachel Yamagata
Hazy- Rosi Golan ft. William Fitzsimmons
Eet- Regina Spektor
Poses- Rufus Wainwright
Video- India Arie
Brown Skin- India Arie
Your Song- Elton John cover by Ellie Golding
Trouble Sleeping- Corinne Bailey Rae

These are songs that I find just gorgeous and really calming. I hope you enjoy them :] there's a mixture of genre, so I'm sure you'll find some favorites :]
I miss you so so much!! Love you E <3

xxo taylor

Friday, August 31, 2012

Yes, I'm in a Long Distance Relationship, No, It's None of Your Fucking Business

As the title very blatantly states, I'm in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend of six and half months. Stop right there, I'll say it for you. Y'all are so young! It's not worth it! You're not going to have the full college experience! Shut up. These are all things I heard from this 21 year old girl as I was sitting outside my friends' residence hall just talking and meeting new people. The girl, Baltimore, cause she's from Maryland, heard me mention that I didn't want to be the lame one and skip a frat party to skype my boyfriend, but that's probably what I was going to end up doing. She, very condescendingly, said "Oh! You're in a long distance relationship? Tell me about him!" So I told the story of how we ended up dating and everything and then she went on a whole rant about how last semester she spent the whole time in a long distance relationship, with a guy from fucking D.C.!, not a guy five hours away like C. And she just had tunnel vision and she always wanted to break up but he would always convince her to stay with him. Well bitch, I'm 99% sure I'm going to marry this kid. So back the fuck off. She then said "You've only been together six and half months and you think you're going to spend the rest of your life with him??!?!" Yes. This whole thing went on for about fifteen minutes, with my friend A.G agreeing with her and this girl I just met A.R backing me up, she's nice. I like her. So now I'm in even less of a mood to go to some frat party where I'm going to be judged on what I'm wearing if I can get in to hang out with a bunch of douche bags because some girl, who kept saying "You're young, you're young." bitch is three fucking years older than I am, decides to shit all over my relationship. Yes, I am an idealistic person. I think I can save Africa. But what I do in my free time and who I decide to be with, is nobody else's fucking business. Basically what I think it comes down to is people throw rocks at things that shine because they're so unhappy with their pathetic lives to be genuinely happy for someone who just might have found the love of their lives at the age of 18. I'm not judging her for being a 21 year old sophomore, don't judge me and act all holier than thou because you had one shitty experience with an over controlling guy who lives like, 22 hours away (I admit, I google mapped how far D.C was from where I am.) So, ladies and gentlemen, if you every happen to run into someone who's in a long distance relationship, whatever your opinion is, especially if it's a negative one, they've heard before and sure as shit don't need to hear it again. Just wish them the best and hope that it works out for them. Because we need a whole lot more love in the world, so why would you tell someone that their's isn't real or strong enough or going to last? It literally has zero affect on you what so ever.

still seething, taylor

ps. my apologies for the language in this post, but I'm really fucking livid.

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Women are Three Dimensional

E has inspired me once again in a way that only E can do :] She sent me this article

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/2zkS0e/:swUx7PKY:PfDAGE66/www.elle.com/Life-Love/Sex-Relationships/Walter-Kirn-on-Sex-Appeal/

which I advise you take the five minutes to read instead of skimming over it like it is always so tempting to do. Readdyyyy, go!

All right. At first, I loved it. Really did. I was like, yay! "Plain" girls getting noticed! Femininity and sexuality come in all shapes and sizes! And then I started to think. All shapes and sizes. So then, why are the stereotypically pretty girls automatically written off? If I were to go out clubbing (as I've only done once and it was a total disaster, which included E, P and C) then I'd definitely dress up! Put on those uncomfortable glass slippers the writer harps on and on about and do my hair and put on a freak 'em dress, etc. Now, I don't consider any of my friends plain. I think they're all unbelievably stunning (which could be a testament to their awesome personalities as well as genetics. who knows) but even if one of them put on flats because they're easier to dance in and a more comfortable outfit, that doesn't mean they're automatically more interesting or less pretty than I am. Yes, people, especially women, express themselves through their clothing. I sure as hell do. But you cannot immediately assume one girl is a snobby, self-satisfied bitch who only drug the other, less vibrant but also more intellectual girl along because she'd make her, the bitch, look better. This is just another example of men compartmentalizing women into neat, one dimensional categories so it's easier for them to pick from the grand selection of pussy set out for them. Okay, okay. This guy really is looking for something special. For someone of substance to have a conversation that may lead to a meaningful relationship with. But who's to say the "prettier" girl can't give him that? Why can't women be fashionable and intelligent? Primped and intriguing? The writer seems to be trying to live by the whole don't-judge-a-book-by-it's-cover mantra but is instead perpetuating it by discriminating against girls with fake tans and boob jobs. You know what? Maybe that beauty pageant pretty girl is a feminist who just likes the way she looks in that dress or with that nose job? It doesn't have to be because society told her to surgically perfect herself or because she's trying to please some guy. It is possible for a girl to look good for herself, not for a condescending male who's trying really hard to appeal to feminists. But feminists shouldn't be about putting down the mainstream form a pretty to make themselves feel better. We should be about lifting up all women of literally all shapes and sizes, including 00 and enlarged bra sizes. No one second guesses a hot male brain surgeon's intelligence if his face is symmetrical and he has well fitted pants. Why do we have to immediately label all conventionally pretty girls uninteresting? This article really frustrated me because this guy is trying to read into people's souls just by judging what they're wearing. Dude. It's a dress that makes my ass look good while pop lockin' and droppin' it on girls' night out. Calm the fuck down.

xxo taylor.

Friday, July 13, 2012

Healthy Mind, Healthy Body, Healthy Spirit

As you may have read in my I Work Out post (http://livenaturallyblog.blogspot.com/2012/04/i-work-out.html) I have been getting into shape. Yeahhhh buddy :] I've noticed as I've gotten healthier that I am constantly changing my routine to better fit myself. My most recent decision has been to listen to books as I run and work out instead of dirty rap (although I do love myself some Kanye or Gambino) to also facilitate a healthy mind as I facilitate my healthy body. I am ever working on letting my inner beauty and self shine through. I've also noticed as I've been eating better and working out that if I ever skip a run or eat bad food, I feel bad. Not guilty, although that sometimes does happen, but I feel sluggish and tired and sick. It really doesn't make sense to me anymore to not work out and eat healthy and get enough sleep, because it doesn't allow me to be my best self. Hope y'all are all staying happy, healthy, and shiny!

xo taylor